Lamentation 3:22-23

Recently feel a bit funny. But really thank God for His grace and mercy and faithfulness.

Through the mess of my life and working, His mercy fail not.

Reminded me His word in Lamentation 3:22-23 Throught the Lord's mercy we are not consumed. Because His compassions fail not. There are new every morning; great is Your faithfulness.

Got caugth in a promotion preparation last week and company trip hand in hand make me decided to skip sunday service which i felt so regretted. Purposely wake up early in sunday morning rush to office before 7.30am prepare my stuff and at 9.25 rush back to teach sunday school then after that rush back to office to work. Then boss delay the departure of the business trip to JB. so wait few more hours there.

But interesting thing happen on monday night. A message that stunt me. Is from my good sister Pang Pang. request whether i can lead worship on behalf of Tiong Hee for her brother wedding ceremony on 8th August 2009. I thinking twice cause i only lead worship in children church and twice in youth. Certainly i'm not ready for leading in service some more is a wedding ceremony on other ppl's church!!!! But one of Our brother is in business trip in Labuan so he couldn't make it. I kind of hesitate but still decided to do it and Pray gau gau that God must be there. I know worship is not bout the congregation, not bout the place but is bout God. So make my step on water. But since then, i couln't really sleep well lolz.

I'm quite bothered with the song selection so i pray and pray and it is always in such a time like this, i hear God's voice again.... is not bout the song... but is bout the heart. As long as your heart is worshipping me, anysong will do, will be a worship song to Me. But if your heart is merely singing karaoke .... how deep or fantastic worship song also sound like karaoka to Me. After heard the confirmation then i selected two song that gotta do with celebration. "come on and celebrate" and "hari ini"

Thanks for some .. servant heart musician who willingly take up last minute notice and practise on wednesday and thursday which is Eric and Leonard of cause pang pang also. I not sure i can lead or will I so nervous and spoil the weddding? then i'm SINNFUL lolz. Here come saturday morning and when the worship session started... the congregation are worshipping God... together .. is very joyous to see all the ppl worshipping God .. and such a peace in my heart that i wasn't nervous throughout the session. Instead .. the joy .. is there hehe ... Few Uncle feedback the worship leading is good.. but i'm kind of pai seh .. and i replied with all my heart that is merely God grace ..

In my early years of walk with God .. i always think that i can do better if i'm on the stage..

after some years .. finally i realise .. i'm not worthy of the stage ..

Then i learned .. is not bout the stage .. is bout the heart ..

One pastor used to mention this before she lead worship .... "i'm not a singer, but i'm worshipper"

One profound statement i read in the church,

"Lord, please take away my pride."

But God replied,"is not for Me to take away, but is for you to give up."

yes, is for me to give up.

Really thank God and my brother that given me this opportunity .. .

Same goes to night wedding dinner performance . We are not taht ready but ... it appear to be the best .. we try lolz the peace it ther :) ...

Once again .. Thank You Jesus. . .