Thank You

I actually forgotten how to post a blog. I actually need to login first....... 

Since such a long time ... things changed so much. 

I'm so glad that we have come this far. 

My relationship with er hem..., and the young adult opps already young adult lolz. I glad that what the Lord is doing and moving in us.  

I want to thank all of you who encouraged me most important the experience of journeying together.

I find His hand moving in my life even as I work, many times the "spark" just spark in my mind and I get the insight of work related issue and strange thing is I knew that's right. It has to be Holy Spirit. 

As I pray and pray together with AJ and Mei that we young adult will rise up and be the salt and the light for our beloved Malaysia, God answered and He answered completely. 

Everyone that we prayed for rise and stand even at the risk of persecution.

I can't help but remain amazed. And amazed and amazed. 

God is moving, revival is happening everywhere. Churches comes together regardless of denomination to pray for our beloved country. Young adult in church is rising up. 

God presence and His hand is in every area even in my workplace and relationship. 

As I learned to pause and pray, Holy Spirit work!!! He really working. 

I felt compassion instead of remain in anger, I sense what He asking me to do and I wait upon Him even and especially during chaos! 

More and more I experience Him everyday, supernaturally. Awesomely!

When I look back some of my blog lolz oh dear, so much has changed.
Those days are not in vain, but now even better as I learn and learning to love with compassion. 

The more I love with compassion, the more I see the hand of God is moving. 

I want thank You for putting at such a time like this, to be Your vessel to love, to care and to act according to Your will. I thankful for the brothers and sister in Christ around me. They are too awesome.
And Lord, I pray that we will all run the race well and finish it. Love You. Albert

Chest Surgery in Pantai Hospital 19th Jan 2011

Before operation

Buddies pray for me after operation
That alien thingy that took out from my chest

Is 2/3 of my last finger long.

My Chest got a hole of 50sen coin size for few weeks.

Since December 2010, my chest have a "thing" swollen.
like 50sen coin size and itchy and growing.
After a month of visiting Clinic doctor decided to do surgery.
on 18th Jan went to clinic the doctor said the thing too near my chest he dare not do so refer me to Pantai hospital.


On 19th Jan 2011 I went to Pantai hospital, Doctor ask me when want to do surgery on to remove the benign the fat tumor. I said on 19th Jan itself, Doctor said if do on 19th then have to admit to hospital one night since is already 3pm. If surgery on 20th Jan then no need admission.
Without thinking much I said do it on 19th itself cause I want to recover faster.
But after I made that decision I very regret cause need to stay in hospital.

I would like to say the waiting time is the most scary moment. Nurse ask me to take out my shirt and pants and put on the surgery outfit. I do exactly what she told, then she ask me did I remove my underwear i said no. (Surgery on chest why need to take out underwear -.-!! she mentioned only shirt and pants ma) then she said NAKED!! After i do as she said i feel very "windy" and sexy.
I don't know why i can walk they put me on wheel chair, then put me on the trolley and push me after many doors, and wait outside the surgery room leave me there where a lot of doctor & nurse walking pass by. I look at the clock is 4:45pm. and i wait and wait and wait .... getting nervous. untill is around 5:20pm Doctor came and i been pushed in the surgery room, The OPERATION THEATRE they called.
Just like those movie, i see two BIG BIG kind of light shinning on me and the Doctor ask me want to sleep or not, i ponder for 2 second and Doctor said if not scared no need one. then i say ok lo (greatest regret after that).

Climax ....
Doctor apply some brown colour liquid on my chest super cooling and after few second i feel my body numb.. wow.. then Doctor start to take some "yi yi" equipment and Potong me. If you watched the movie "awake" is something like that. i FELT my chest been TEARING APART, but still bearable. but what happen next .... the "yi YI" equipment sounds like dental thingy while doing scaling, i felt my chest kena DRILLED and cut the flesh .. pain like never before. for that 10minutes ... was longest 10minute in my life.

But thank God because of the admission to hospital, my medical fees which is RM3.1 k can fully covered by insurance. If I do on 20th Jan then insurance only cover RM900 and I have to pay the rest. THANK GOD.

And very grateful for Victor, Caleb, Joshua, Lai tee & Aunty Janet drop by at 9.30pm to visit and pray for me. Really thank God that after they prayed, i don't feel pain on that night.

感触阿感触

感触感触
压抑了多个月的感触是时候疏解出来了把。
到现在我才真正的明白pastor的苦楚。
那种被人骂和看扁都只能默默的忍受的痛苦。
为了保持大家之间的友好关系惟有“哑巴吃黄连”Pastor 整天讲的"Bitting the bullet".
尤其是被那种目中无人的眼光，真是不好受。
现在才了解pastor又多为大。相信现在没有人会比我更了解他经过的和所承受过的吧。
但往往在此时此刻我都会想起Sister Chai Hong 对我说过的话。
要学会吃Humble pie。 吵架只会让devil得逞。
什么叫做“高处不胜寒”。诺布事主耶稣此我与心灵上的依靠，我还真的不知道还能撑多久。
好多次好多次想要放弃，可始终是没舍得我的youth.
或许没有人知道，我其实早在去年就开始准备如何成为一个好的领导人，
我其实天真地以为只要像耶稣一样务实的奉献和帮助别人就行了。
但到头来才发现不是全部人都会因此而感动或接受你的。
我无私的奉献观心与关怀，不是因为我要收买人心，只是我真的希望大家能守墓相助，大家一起成长。
很多人都劝我要earn the right to lead，我真的明白，我真的了解。
我甚至在去年就开始 earn the right 了，可是我真的至今都还没earn 到很多leader 的服从。
得来的是恨过的负面评语，虽然真的很失望很难过，但很感激像美美和韵璇，sabrina,Sister Chai hong他们的坦白纠正我的错误。
我的脾气变得暴躁，跋扈伤害了无最要害的妹妹美美。令他产生了阴影真实很后悔。
其实sister chai hong所得对，我不能一直因为怕伤害别人而不站起来说哦，
就像耶稣，他不但TENDER，而且还TOUGH。
令我了解到所谓的SOFT并不是懦弱，还要FIRM，坚持自己和主耶稣的信念。
虽然就像语言中我会一直撞板，在别人跟不到的时候就要放下脚步。
所以我不会放弃的。无论他人如何误会我或是无心伤害，主明白我的心。
其实从一个INTERN突然间成为YOUTH 的领导人确实很难服众的。
但我会尽快学习，我一定要。
真的很感激上帝无时无刻的帮助和陪伴。刚接管YOUTH的时候都靠着自己那么有限的能力支撑YOUTH那么愚蠢的。
现在慢慢得学会等待和依靠上帝。逐渐能看见YOUTH真的在慢慢成长了。与其是上兴起的CG，真的察觉到他们变了很多，很开朗和成熟了，而且还很有勇气的打开心扉在心事全盘托出，并且还互相尊重，让我看到了无限的期望。
NOT BY MIGHT， NOR BY POWER， BUT BY THE HOLY SPIRIT。
无不喜欢跑步，但从去年开始刻意养成这习惯，而且还万万都想不到我林锋源会参加MARATHON 而且还跑完十公里！其实就是为了训练我的体格和毅力。因为我了解到无论什么RACE没有毅力都不会成功的。
Paul所说的Race不是跑得最快的人赢得，而是有毅力跑到终点的人赢得。
我开始真的跑得不好，真的很慢，胆子要我坚持，我的YOUTH和我一起坚持，我们一定能携手跑到最后的，跑完这场赛。