Thank You

I actually forgotten how to post a blog. I actually need to login first....... 

Since such a long time ... things changed so much. 

I'm so glad that we have come this far. 

My relationship with er hem..., and the young adult opps already young adult lolz. I glad that what the Lord is doing and moving in us.  

I want to thank all of you who encouraged me most important the experience of journeying together.

I find His hand moving in my life even as I work, many times the "spark" just spark in my mind and I get the insight of work related issue and strange thing is I knew that's right. It has to be Holy Spirit. 

As I pray and pray together with AJ and Mei that we young adult will rise up and be the salt and the light for our beloved Malaysia, God answered and He answered completely. 

Everyone that we prayed for rise and stand even at the risk of persecution.

I can't help but remain amazed. And amazed and amazed. 

God is moving, revival is happening everywhere. Churches comes together regardless of denomination to pray for our beloved country. Young adult in church is rising up. 

God presence and His hand is in every area even in my workplace and relationship. 

As I learned to pause and pray, Holy Spirit work!!! He really working. 

I felt compassion instead of remain in anger, I sense what He asking me to do and I wait upon Him even and especially during chaos! 

More and more I experience Him everyday, supernaturally. Awesomely!

When I look back some of my blog lolz oh dear, so much has changed.
Those days are not in vain, but now even better as I learn and learning to love with compassion. 

The more I love with compassion, the more I see the hand of God is moving. 

I want thank You for putting at such a time like this, to be Your vessel to love, to care and to act according to Your will. I thankful for the brothers and sister in Christ around me. They are too awesome.
And Lord, I pray that we will all run the race well and finish it. Love You. Albert

Chest Surgery in Pantai Hospital 19th Jan 2011

Before operation

Buddies pray for me after operation
That alien thingy that took out from my chest

Is 2/3 of my last finger long.

My Chest got a hole of 50sen coin size for few weeks.

Since December 2010, my chest have a "thing" swollen.
like 50sen coin size and itchy and growing.
After a month of visiting Clinic doctor decided to do surgery.
on 18th Jan went to clinic the doctor said the thing too near my chest he dare not do so refer me to Pantai hospital.


On 19th Jan 2011 I went to Pantai hospital, Doctor ask me when want to do surgery on to remove the benign the fat tumor. I said on 19th Jan itself, Doctor said if do on 19th then have to admit to hospital one night since is already 3pm. If surgery on 20th Jan then no need admission.
Without thinking much I said do it on 19th itself cause I want to recover faster.
But after I made that decision I very regret cause need to stay in hospital.

I would like to say the waiting time is the most scary moment. Nurse ask me to take out my shirt and pants and put on the surgery outfit. I do exactly what she told, then she ask me did I remove my underwear i said no. (Surgery on chest why need to take out underwear -.-!! she mentioned only shirt and pants ma) then she said NAKED!! After i do as she said i feel very "windy" and sexy.
I don't know why i can walk they put me on wheel chair, then put me on the trolley and push me after many doors, and wait outside the surgery room leave me there where a lot of doctor & nurse walking pass by. I look at the clock is 4:45pm. and i wait and wait and wait .... getting nervous. untill is around 5:20pm Doctor came and i been pushed in the surgery room, The OPERATION THEATRE they called.
Just like those movie, i see two BIG BIG kind of light shinning on me and the Doctor ask me want to sleep or not, i ponder for 2 second and Doctor said if not scared no need one. then i say ok lo (greatest regret after that).

Climax ....
Doctor apply some brown colour liquid on my chest super cooling and after few second i feel my body numb.. wow.. then Doctor start to take some "yi yi" equipment and Potong me. If you watched the movie "awake" is something like that. i FELT my chest been TEARING APART, but still bearable. but what happen next .... the "yi YI" equipment sounds like dental thingy while doing scaling, i felt my chest kena DRILLED and cut the flesh .. pain like never before. for that 10minutes ... was longest 10minute in my life.

But thank God because of the admission to hospital, my medical fees which is RM3.1 k can fully covered by insurance. If I do on 20th Jan then insurance only cover RM900 and I have to pay the rest. THANK GOD.

And very grateful for Victor, Caleb, Joshua, Lai tee & Aunty Janet drop by at 9.30pm to visit and pray for me. Really thank God that after they prayed, i don't feel pain on that night.

感触阿感触

感触感触
压抑了多个月的感触是时候疏解出来了把。
到现在我才真正的明白pastor的苦楚。
那种被人骂和看扁都只能默默的忍受的痛苦。
为了保持大家之间的友好关系惟有“哑巴吃黄连”Pastor 整天讲的"Bitting the bullet".
尤其是被那种目中无人的眼光，真是不好受。
现在才了解pastor又多为大。相信现在没有人会比我更了解他经过的和所承受过的吧。
但往往在此时此刻我都会想起Sister Chai Hong 对我说过的话。
要学会吃Humble pie。 吵架只会让devil得逞。
什么叫做“高处不胜寒”。诺布事主耶稣此我与心灵上的依靠，我还真的不知道还能撑多久。
好多次好多次想要放弃，可始终是没舍得我的youth.
或许没有人知道，我其实早在去年就开始准备如何成为一个好的领导人，
我其实天真地以为只要像耶稣一样务实的奉献和帮助别人就行了。
但到头来才发现不是全部人都会因此而感动或接受你的。
我无私的奉献观心与关怀，不是因为我要收买人心，只是我真的希望大家能守墓相助，大家一起成长。
很多人都劝我要earn the right to lead，我真的明白，我真的了解。
我甚至在去年就开始 earn the right 了，可是我真的至今都还没earn 到很多leader 的服从。
得来的是恨过的负面评语，虽然真的很失望很难过，但很感激像美美和韵璇，sabrina,Sister Chai hong他们的坦白纠正我的错误。
我的脾气变得暴躁，跋扈伤害了无最要害的妹妹美美。令他产生了阴影真实很后悔。
其实sister chai hong所得对，我不能一直因为怕伤害别人而不站起来说哦，
就像耶稣，他不但TENDER，而且还TOUGH。
令我了解到所谓的SOFT并不是懦弱，还要FIRM，坚持自己和主耶稣的信念。
虽然就像语言中我会一直撞板，在别人跟不到的时候就要放下脚步。
所以我不会放弃的。无论他人如何误会我或是无心伤害，主明白我的心。
其实从一个INTERN突然间成为YOUTH 的领导人确实很难服众的。
但我会尽快学习，我一定要。
真的很感激上帝无时无刻的帮助和陪伴。刚接管YOUTH的时候都靠着自己那么有限的能力支撑YOUTH那么愚蠢的。
现在慢慢得学会等待和依靠上帝。逐渐能看见YOUTH真的在慢慢成长了。与其是上兴起的CG，真的察觉到他们变了很多，很开朗和成熟了，而且还很有勇气的打开心扉在心事全盘托出，并且还互相尊重，让我看到了无限的期望。
NOT BY MIGHT， NOR BY POWER， BUT BY THE HOLY SPIRIT。
无不喜欢跑步，但从去年开始刻意养成这习惯，而且还万万都想不到我林锋源会参加MARATHON 而且还跑完十公里！其实就是为了训练我的体格和毅力。因为我了解到无论什么RACE没有毅力都不会成功的。
Paul所说的Race不是跑得最快的人赢得，而是有毅力跑到终点的人赢得。
我开始真的跑得不好，真的很慢，胆子要我坚持，我的YOUTH和我一起坚持，我们一定能携手跑到最后的，跑完这场赛。

a worth of sacrifice...

Lamentation 3:22-23

Recently feel a bit funny. But really thank God for His grace and mercy and faithfulness.

Through the mess of my life and working, His mercy fail not.

Reminded me His word in Lamentation 3:22-23 Throught the Lord's mercy we are not consumed. Because His compassions fail not. There are new every morning; great is Your faithfulness.

Got caugth in a promotion preparation last week and company trip hand in hand make me decided to skip sunday service which i felt so regretted. Purposely wake up early in sunday morning rush to office before 7.30am prepare my stuff and at 9.25 rush back to teach sunday school then after that rush back to office to work. Then boss delay the departure of the business trip to JB. so wait few more hours there.

But interesting thing happen on monday night. A message that stunt me. Is from my good sister Pang Pang. request whether i can lead worship on behalf of Tiong Hee for her brother wedding ceremony on 8th August 2009. I thinking twice cause i only lead worship in children church and twice in youth. Certainly i'm not ready for leading in service some more is a wedding ceremony on other ppl's church!!!! But one of Our brother is in business trip in Labuan so he couldn't make it. I kind of hesitate but still decided to do it and Pray gau gau that God must be there. I know worship is not bout the congregation, not bout the place but is bout God. So make my step on water. But since then, i couln't really sleep well lolz.

I'm quite bothered with the song selection so i pray and pray and it is always in such a time like this, i hear God's voice again.... is not bout the song... but is bout the heart. As long as your heart is worshipping me, anysong will do, will be a worship song to Me. But if your heart is merely singing karaoke .... how deep or fantastic worship song also sound like karaoka to Me. After heard the confirmation then i selected two song that gotta do with celebration. "come on and celebrate" and "hari ini"

Thanks for some .. servant heart musician who willingly take up last minute notice and practise on wednesday and thursday which is Eric and Leonard of cause pang pang also. I not sure i can lead or will I so nervous and spoil the weddding? then i'm SINNFUL lolz. Here come saturday morning and when the worship session started... the congregation are worshipping God... together .. is very joyous to see all the ppl worshipping God .. and such a peace in my heart that i wasn't nervous throughout the session. Instead .. the joy .. is there hehe ... Few Uncle feedback the worship leading is good.. but i'm kind of pai seh .. and i replied with all my heart that is merely God grace ..

In my early years of walk with God .. i always think that i can do better if i'm on the stage..

after some years .. finally i realise .. i'm not worthy of the stage ..

Then i learned .. is not bout the stage .. is bout the heart ..

One pastor used to mention this before she lead worship .... "i'm not a singer, but i'm worshipper"

One profound statement i read in the church,

"Lord, please take away my pride."

But God replied,"is not for Me to take away, but is for you to give up."

yes, is for me to give up.

Really thank God and my brother that given me this opportunity .. .

Same goes to night wedding dinner performance . We are not taht ready but ... it appear to be the best .. we try lolz the peace it ther :) ...

Once again .. Thank You Jesus. . .

VIP Cheong k session

Wakak thanks to Justin and Ann birthday we celebrate in Neway. Although Neway very evil forced us to take the tibits but we still enjoy ourself hehe ..

Wow see our brother sing untill face off ...

Ann doing devotion in neway.. solute ...

Prophetic Seminar

Wow! What else word that i can describe ?

After 19th May Worship central God spoke to me to rise up.

21st May. She sharing why should we evanglise.
because we need love. The speaker share bout ther homosexual experience and one point of time
God: why you wanted to go into Homo
she: because i need love and comfort that's why
God: why are you beating yourself when you need love and comfort? what you think you need after beating yourself?
She: more love and comfort?
God: yes, why not you come to Me and i will give you love and comfort.

When we seek love in sin we end up more and more guilty and need more love and comfort.

At the end of the meeting ministering time, one elder pray for me and confirm that i should rise up and take on my group. I know i sense in my heart to but been compromising all the while.
Is comfirmation and he went on praying for me. Then another guy come and ask me whether i need healing then i said stomach then he prayed.
then after that the speaker sense stomach pain and i know is me then ppl pray for me.

then next day morning my stomach get much better.
22nd May night. We practise how to prophesy. very amazing the way God spoke to us.
First task, imagine a animal and prophesy over the partner. My partner is a giant size fella but the picture come to me is a white bird like dove flying above forest. I thought what??? Then the guy said is very truth cause he actually army camp and he is a unique one ... the rest of the army all wearing other colour uniform just like the forest is green and the bird is white. the bird is always the focus and what the ppl look up to and its pure. I'm syok and excited.
But what this guy prophesy me is gorrila obviously i'm not the big size one but he continue to say i like the gorrila leader leading gorrila and like the silver back that is strong. that i will take lead of people. Amen to that. Second confirmation.

Second task, take picture of a car and colour, then i see the yellow lambogini and i pray for another guy and said is a powerful car and adventures and he said yes he is adventures but he is kind of burnt out cause of over talented. then he pray for me get a picture of a blue sport car a very big engine. then i will drive and lead alot of ppl, and i not been utilizing the big engine, if i dare to drive the big engine and i wil run for God. There is such great potential when i step out in faith to drive the big engine. 3rd confirmation.

Third task of the day. Prophesy over new partner for any picture comes in mind.
This time i get it quite fast as in i saw a dark force auro from sky surpressing down to ground but i notice there is white force aura pushing up for sometime then at the end the white aura manage to break through the dark aura. The guy response said is truth cause he facing a lot of problem in friendship and sometimes want to do it his own way. Then the word he giving me is he saw me as fisher of men. After i fish from a big pond then i put in a small pond to take care of them nicely. Again this is about take caring my fish. Discipling my ppl.

The whole seminar is the Lord's speaking. I looking forward tomorrow morning which is the practical prophetic evangelical event on shopping mall lolz.

Thank You Lord for so many confirmation. I know what to do d. :P

Worst Month or Glorious Month

It has been a long long time since I last update my blog.
Out of audience request I decided to update my life.
If you have a week heart please consider reframe from continue reading below story.

On the white valentine day, 14th March I received a very special gifts, not chocolate and not flower but a car Nissan sunny with the plate number WDC 7743. I’m very excited bout it and play with it day and night without knowing something horrible is waiting behind me.

I bringing my second wife along to work and back from work everyday or rather she bringing me depends how you interpret it. I’m very proud of her as she shelter me from rain and bringing me through from one point to my destination without me getting into trouble. I gave her accessories a car modulator that can play song from pendrive. I add in the sun block thingy for her and a clothing for the seat. I looking high and low for a natural perfume like sun flower smell for her but yet to get it. Sun flower gave me a Sunny smells. I love sun flower and I love people who love sun flower J.

Without knowing, the day approaching, out of the blue I agreed to go movie with my cliques as I hardly or nearly never go movie for fellowship because I think face to face interaction is better still. That day I back from work, on 30th Apr, something frightened me, along the way there is unusual jam and I saw two accidents happened in front of me, very terrifying. I continue to fetch my friend dniz and jon and after that I pass by my house thinking whether to change cloths or not but finally decided proceed. And just when I turn right after my house junction and pass the traffic light when its about to turn yellow, I saw a kancil rushing from the left hand side and bi ba boooooom…… a scene that I will never forget, looking the kancil smashing on front left door where dniz is sitting, watching dniz drift herself towards me, watching the car door pushing in and window breaks into many pieces and flying towards me. That moment I’m stunned wonder is dniz ok and jon sitting behind also left hand side whether is ok. By God grace I think by guidance of Holy Spirit after bang I very automatically drive to road side and checking dniz and jon whether they are still alive. Thank God is only minor scratch for such a horrible impact. Glasses POURed into dniz and my shirt and pants.

After 3 of us calm down I go checked the kancil driver is a lady thin like a chopsticks she’s fine with minor scratches on her palm. She begin her first statement with “you are driving so fast”. I’m kind of surprise why she will speed out from that junction since my traffic is green and next two turn only is her turn. But this question jon answered me after 10minutes observing the traffice light from her side, her side traffic light spoiled, always red and won’t turn green. She said she saw the car in front speed then she also rush out.
Soon both our family came and funny thing is my mom know her mom so thinking of since know each other should be simple. Due to my sister went bengkok and I lent her my camera I can’t take photo. After that heavy rain, bungkus … my car expose to rain and me and my father all wet. Then on that night itself I go police station to report. Thank God uncle Chew, Rachel’s father always there for my family from searching car till buying car till banging car and till fixing the car. Chinese said “Yat Tiu Long” service lolz.
Without experience I brought my car registration card to police station which later on found out is no need. My uncle go with me and first time I tell him bout the church and he said he wanted to learn English and I asked him to come our church and he asked me can I go and not believe in Jesus ah lolz of cause can la. Anyway after report police and back home and realize my car registration card missing. I left it in police station. Lost the registration card = lost my car, the only document that can prove that’s my car. Then I turn all the way back to sri petalling police station to get it back and Thank God it still there.

Few day later, I received a phone call from police station during a very important meeting where my boss and my boss’s boss and my boss’s boss’s boss is there also. No choice I go police station with the video of the spoiled traffic light. And after a round of examination police judge is the girl’s fault rush out from red traffic light though is spoiled. Funny thing the girl said we knock together but is obviously my car door kena knocked. Cut long story short the girl don’t want to admit wrong I suspect something wrong with her liscense or P liscence or something causing her dare not admit. Then the family said settle our own that we fix our car on our own but I not agree cause is her fault. Then they threaten me to go court if I don’t agree to settle ourself. I offer them I fix my car and they pay half for me since our mom know each other but they refuse. Then I also say go court then go court then the family terbalik persuade me said ok half half, they pay half of my car fixing fees. Then we agree in front of police and settle.
That day when the brother in law of the lady come and pay me the 50% my sister request the guy to pay 50% based on the bill instead of the estimated price Rm550 but the guy insist don’t want. My sister very angry cause the guy very cunning and treated me like that so my sister said go police station and reopen the file then the guy pissed off and take back the money and go off with the last word saying “ I don’t believe you can open back the case in police station”.

My parents and I think better don’t go for court case is troublesome and I call back the guy but the guy not picking up the phone and finally another brother in law answer and scold all the harsh words and ask me call back next morning. As a victim became like a beggar my heart broken, broken because they scold my sister like that and I speechless. How to make a stand for God in this place? Scold them back? I don’t know… I know I broken my sister heart. My heart very burdened. I went back to church prayer meeting but I didn’t join them .. I went to the upper home and cry my hearts out. After a decade I hear people worship downstairs then I go down to join .. the moment I open the door is ending d. I told pastor and aunty Janet bout what happen I said I regretted treat them so good but aunty Janet reply cut my heart, She said “they are who they are but we are who we are in Christ”. I’m stunned and I realize I’ve been blinded by anger. Yes she’s right whether how evil they are I shouldn’t be changing myself because they cunning.

Next morning I called and the joker scolding upside down again. My sister and pastor brought me to survey car workshop I’m so touched and thankful. Then at 4pm I follow Rachel to SIBKL for a service. In that service God spoke to me. Loud and clear. The message is on the cross, forgiveness. Jesus come and die for our sin, is not His fault and He suffered for all and been blame, been fool, been strips and been crucified. Upon the cross He still praying for us “Father, forgive them for they don’t know what they are doing.” It is forgiveness that cut off hatred. One step further is to bless them. Pray those who curse you.
Jesus been condemned in other for us to be set free. Jesus been wounded so that we may be heal.
Once you break the curse of unforgiveness there will be newness.
What evil mean for bad God will always turn it into good with saving knowledge.
My tears coming down like the fountain of living water throughout the whole service like a siao lang. lolz is kind of embarrassed but I’m blessed. It is truth that God never forsake me, He is showing on the right time. I decided to forgive them.

When I realize there is 5 miss call from home and when I reached home my parents asked me not to go police station in the next day (EASTER SUNDAY) because my parents worry the cunning people might know gangster and will revenge if we get to police. I straight told them no need to worry as I decided to forgive them. I told them what aunty Janet said they are who they are but we are who we are, they are evil and cunning but we stand for our own policy. They cheating but we shouldn’t else what’s the difference between us. I told my parents to forgive them, other wise hatred grow and only we suffering the consequences. I said we no need to beg for money though we are not rich but Rm1k I’m still afford to pay and by God grace dniz and Jon is safe is the greatest grace. Why not we choose to bless them with that 1k and forgive them and press own and put a full stop over this accident rather than begging like a beggar and let hatred grow and family in quarrel. I told myself if 1k can buy peace in my family I will be more than willing to pay. After they heard they suddenly felt relief, for the whole week all of us cannot sleep due to this accident and cunning people but the moment when we choose to forgive the NEWNESS like what the SIBKL preacher said the newness come in after we the curse of unforgiveness breaks. There is so peaceful at home that moment lolz 3 of us are smiling which I think we have a week without smile then my mom asked me who teach you how to say all this then I said I went church just now and a pastor told us through the message. She’s impressed and asked me to share what the pastor shared. I’m shocked as I never really talk bout Jesus to my parents before and this is the first time I tell them bout Easter and why Jesus die on the cross and forgiveness. Though my mom just hm hmm hmm without saying much but thank God for “what ever evil mean for bad God will always turn it into good with saving knowledge” another point of the pastor preaching. God has spoken!!! I told my sister and my sister of cause feel not worth ending like this but at least all of us have peace and my sister don’t have to suffer any more J

Out of this accident I learned many things, I learned that my father actually is very honest, as people cheat us he insist tell the truth, I’m so respect. My family talked come together to solve this problem together the whole week I think the communication is more than 1 month’s communication that we normally talked. God’s words has been shared. And my family have very good impression towards Christian especially Chew’s family and pastor that has been helping all the times.

2009 REGIME 2818 First Mission: Exploring Sungai Gala

A little BBQ at the night of waterfall. And a little bit of drinking .. hehe

Drink and drive ... some girls gone siao

2008 Last Sunset in PD

Economic crisis ..... one colleauge wanted to end his life with year 2008 wakaka.

Prison break season 5

Kam Min Toy!!! So ganas.. . Adrian yellls ... cause always too slow lolz ..

Wow .. some sexy dance ... Group sexy dance ..
sweat ......

Seremban famous mouse mee!!

Of cause this is not mouse mee this is Hakka mee

This is neither mouse mee... this is a enlarge version of ..... .

My super duper delicious wantan mee hehe no one order mouse mee that day akaka.

This is the famous chicken rice shop in seremban but only got one stomch for lunch so next time sure come makan.