searching my heart ...

In the midnight 2:40am ... listening to canon song playing in my blog. Half way rushing thesis, out of sudden just want to pause and just listen to the canon song .. burden gone.. lots of memory good and bad , happy and sad picture by picture like a slide show bit by bit flooding my mind.. so sentimental .. just don't feel like doing anything ... and let the wonder melody minister to me ..is so good to stop a while in busy life and just listen music with heart ... so nice .. so peaceful .. the last time that i having such sentimental moment should be many years back ... in orchestra camp .. so much of sweet memory .. friends .. musics . all my klang freinds are just so friendly . . already 3:07am have to wake up at 6:30am but i just wanna remain this mood.. searching back the inner me that missing so long ... lost in busy life .. live life routinely ..used to life my life just to bless people but now caught in buziness slowly slowly bit by bit without noticing .. though character is building bit by bit overtime but .. my most previous heart seems lost some where . a heart that used to concern and care a lot .. a heart that's seek opportunity to bless people without string attach, a heart of patient and understanding ... i missed the time when i'm very introvet that i listen and understand people around me ..now not even half of it since i talk more ... i listen less .. sensing less of friends emotions .. i wonder whether its worth ... i doubt i learned so much head knowledge but bit by bit fading from genuin heart to hardened heart .. loving became not that loving .. became offensive .. wow ... i must wake up .. must not polluted by any other thing in the world .... Lord pls resurrect my heart .. melt it Lord ... let my heart bless people around me .. and who lost their heart too ... and bless the nation that Your name mayb glorify ...

‘WHAT DOES NOT KILL US ONLY MAKE US STRONGER’

Thanks Joyeah for sharing such wonderful article from rage. enjoy..

They always say, ‘what does not kill us only makes us stronger’.

I humbly agree with the statement above because it is true that one can regain strength once more after a certain downfall because everyone has the capabilities of standing back up. It requires strong faith and belief that anything can be done or can happen because with the lackluster of self-esteem, getting up again after a fall is not going be easy.

Reminiscing the past, I realised that our human hearts can deliberately expand to contain the love that we have for people around us. It does not mean a heart can only love one person because it can give its portion of love to those surrounding us whom are dear. But sometimes, when you think about the love you had had for someone it can make you tear unknowingly.

My close friend told me that loving someone can never be wrong because it makes you a better person and teaches oneself how to love others and in return, their own selves. As they always say, love goes a long way and it goes around. Love is not just a feeling but a learning process which we learn and re-learn every time we encounter blistering mistakes. It teaches oneself how to be patient and never think that love is something bad or sinful.

There is always a higher purpose in life of what all of us have been through even though it may hurt in the beginning but the healing process will make us realise that there is a reason behind what has happened and to what extent are we supposed to comprehend the whole issue. It can tear one up to the lowest of low, but in the end it will only bring out the hero in that person; for gaining victor over the morbidity of the whole incident.

Love gives us strength; a kind of willpower that is hard to come by and it brings the best out of oneself. Though the pain inflicted by love can be excruciating, it will still help one to find the means of moving on with life and live with what had happened and learn from the mistakes.


Author: kyels

MEETING DAY lolz ..

wow today is really can called as a meeting day lolz.

It started in the morning when i awake by my hp alarm at 9.00am then i search the ice breaker for 2pm youth united meeting. then 9.30am i went down to help my mom "pai" "nga ku" for my mom to fried cause else she have to pai for 5 to 6 hours and fry it for 5 to 6 hour means more than 12 hour ... where i can finish pai one BOX in 2 hour haha .. specialyst lolz. by my LRT meeting is at 12pm wow and after i prepare everything is like 9:45am. Wanted to makan the nasi lemak (my favourite breakfast lolz) that my mom bought then only find out the joker didn't give sampah .. so potong stim, how can it call nasi lemak when there is no sampah right!! so i give up and started to pai the nga ku lolz . speeding try my best .. as fast as possible lolz then finally thank God manage to finish by 11.30am

So at 11.30am i went to my pc there to finalize the ice breaker thingy and save in my thumb drive lolz .. then while going to church i carelessly ride into the middle of the road then one car came by wow thank God both the pajero and i stopped on time else i will be in pieces. reach church before 12pm then ... the church locked!!!but thank phebby for slumble take the church key and not letting me in then only i realise i left my pendrive at my pc OMG then rush back to home to take. so end up late when i went in church .. (i'm very hardly late to church one) lolz ..

Then the LRT meeting end around 15 minutes before next youth united meeting lolz. again malaysian timing we started the meeting at 2.30pm then straight till 4 something and 5 pm is sunday school meeting lolz .. i really admire justin cause in 4pm to 5 pm he some more got children church meeting !!! solute !! then our sunday school meeting started on 5 till 7:15 pm raining -.0" but suprisingly i saw dniz manage to rush back after her exam that ended at 4pm lolz .. with her funny hair clip upward haha .. and she asked me clip up nicer or don't clip nicer haha then i tell her sort of indirectly that normally looks nicer wah haha cause is looks funny really lolz.. but is cute la actually. she looks so tired lolz then wow guess what .. 5 star service came. first is Justin take a sarsi (left over from youth united meeting) to her and at the same time i go bancuh coffee for her then when i came in wow some more got one milo dont' know who bancuh for her but at the end of the meeting she like drank 5 cup of different beverages haha. wonder she will cirit birit or not but i pray not haha .. else she can't help me tomorrow in sunday school lolz joking ..

Should children blog? haha i thought of teaching my sunday school children blogging haha with the little knowledge that i know, hope my friend contribute you all opinion hehe ..