And Then He Ran To Me

This is the song that slide me back to God .. . while i been backslided from God for 2 weeks ... It touched deep in my souls .. when i heard this song playing .... is like God direct calling me. I can't help but broke down and cry like baby cause deep in my heart, my soul is calling out Him. Thank You Lord...

AND THEN HE RAN TO ME

Almighty God, the great I am,
Immovable rock, omnipotent, powerful,
awesome Lord, Victorious warrior,
commanding King of Kings, Mighty conqueror
-and the only time I ever saw Him run was when He ran to me,
He took me in His arms, Held my head to His chest, said "My son's come home again!"
Lifted my face, wiped the tears from my eyes,
With forgiveness in His voice He said, "Son do you know I still love you?"
He caught me by surprise when God ran.

The day I left home, I knew I'd broken His heart.
And I wondered then if things could ever be the same.
Then one night I remembered His love for me.
And down that dusty road ahead I could see- It was the only time I ever saw Him run
And then He ran to me, He took me in His arms
Held my head to His chest, said "My son's come home again"
Lifted my face, wiped the tears from my eyes
With forgiveness in His voice He said, "Son do you know I still love you?"
He caught me by surprise as He brought me to my knees When God ran - I saw Him run to me

I was so ashamed, all alone and so far away.
But now I know, He's been waiting for this day.
I saw Him run to me, He took me in His arms
Held my head to His chest, said "My son's come home again"
Lifted my face, wiped the tears from my eyes
With forgiveness in His voice I felt His love for me again

Today i saw my uncle for the first time

4th November 2007

This sunday afternoon i went visit my uncle at Rumah Orang Tua at Jalan Ampang. This is the first time i see him i guess. Paiseh i didn't know i got this uncle cause i'm not very close with relative. I been told that my uncle .. when he was younger that time he went for those bomoh and ask for 4 ekor, but after that something happen to him and he lost his mind and forget everyone around him. But today as i looking at him, he can recognize my uncles, aunties, my mom and my dad even my sister. Most of relative are there to pay him visit and talk with him . bring food for him and seprate the food and the bones for him .. this is the first time i see my uncle they all in such a warm pleasant .. act .. not that normaly they didn't but the kind of brotherly love is .. so touched. .. first time i really feel the kind of big family ...the warmness ... tis shape my perspective towards family .. i think i willl appreciate them more and more now onwards... :P

Praise God for the answered Prayer

21th October 2007

This sunday morning, as usual Justin and I go for morning prayer for sunday school at 8.30am. We prayed for the children to come and come punctually. Then wow in the midst of our prayer, we heard a lot of children coming, wow most of them came before 9 where normaly they will be there at 9:15am really breakthrough lolz .. praise the Lord. Then some more got one more new comer, Rachel and those children who stop coming for sometime also showed up. Wow God is so real. This reminded me bout last months also during one of the sunday school prayer, where pastor Lily sorethroat untill can't really pray, then we pray for her then wow, she can pray already then at the service she go up the pulpit to make announcement that time she's completely healed!!! Amen hehe ... well not to boast, just want to testify that God is so real and good to us..

Integrity Upheld

October 16, 2007

Integrity Upheld

Psalm 41:12

As for me, You uphold me in my integrity,
and set me before Your face forever.

At times, God will be the only witness to your righteousness behavior. Sometimes God is the only one who will understand your motives. Sometimes you will do all you know that God has asked you to do, only to face ridicule from others. At such times all you can do is maintain your integrity, trusting that God always keeps His eyes on you. God looks favorably upon those who walk with integrity, doing what they know is right, regardless of how others perceive their actions.

The most important thing is not that people know the truth.
The most important thing is that you are a person of integrity before God.
When no one seems to understand why you have done something or when others question why you have done all you should have done, your confidence should not be in the hope of vindication in the eyes of others.
It should be in the knowledge that God keeps you in His sight.
If you have this confidence, it will be enough to sustain you.

This passage toched and comforted my heart a lot, especially in times of trial, times where been accuse for doing something good which is so hard for people to believe. Well, no men are truatable except God , why should people believe everything i said? There is not much people know me well.. indeed .. things that i think or do is hard to believe as well cannot blame people for can't understand lolz cause there are times i also tent to judge or accuse people . cause when i do that wow makes me feel i'm more superior or righteous than them which is bullshit haha another lie of the devil .. .. sometime i also wonder .. whether i really like what they said , just another excuses? well , it maybe .. but i guess i want to be persevere in things i do that i believe i do for the good course and be integrity before God instead of man and let God judged, even that time God said i'm failed then i failed. no regrets. Hope if you reading the passage above will encourage you guys to walk in integrity hehe .. God bless...

Keep Going

October 01, 2007

One day I decided to quit...
I quit my job, my relationship, my spirituality... I wanted to quit my life. I went to the woods to have one last talk with God.

"God", I asked, "Can you give me one good reason not to quit?"

His answer surprised me...
"Look around", He said. "Do you see the fern and the bamboo?"

"Yes", I replied.

He said
"When I planted the fern and the bamboo seeds, I took very good care of them. I gave them light. I gave them water. The fern quickly grew from the earth. Its brilliant green covered the floor. Yet nothing came from the bamboo seed. But I did not quit on the bamboo.

In the second year the Fern grew more vibrant and plentiful. And again, nothing came from the bamboo seed. But I did not quit on the bamboo. "
."In year three there was still nothing from the bamboo seed. But I would not quit.

In year four, again, there was nothing from the bamboo seed. I would not quit." He said.

"Then in the fifth year a tiny sprout emerged from the earth. Compared to the fern it was seemingly small and insignificant... But just 6 months later the bamboo rose to over 100 feet tall. It had spent the five years growing roots. Those roots made it strong and gave it what it needed to survive. I would not give any of my creations a challenge it could not handle."

He asked me. "Did you know, my child, that all this time you have been struggling, you have actually been growing roots?".
"I would not quit on the bamboo and likewise I will never quit on you."

"Don't compare yourself to others." He said.
"The bamboo had a different Purpose than the fern. Yet they both make the forest beautiful."

"Your time will come", God said to me. "You will rise high"

"How high should I rise?" I asked.

"How high will the bamboo rise?" He asked in return.

"As high as it can?" I questioned.

"Yes." He said, "Give me glory by rising as high as you can."

I left the forest and brought back this story.
I hope these words can help you see that God will never give up on you.
Never, Never, Never Give up.

God Bless You

Today I'm Blessed... God is so good ... thank You..

August 09, 2007

just came back from Youth Pastor School today, i apply leave for 3 days class to go for this Youth Pastor school and i sacrifice 5% of one subject presentation marks out of 100% of the course mark. Well honestly i asked myself few times is it worth ? Of cause is worht but still i a bit worry, but I remember last semester when i ponteng class so much and repend and study hard by God grace ... i get the best result so far in my college life. well don't get me wrong i'm not promoting ponteng but what i want to say that GOd is good, so this time i believe .. if i put much more effort in i can still get straight A for semester which i plan to get. But when i back today my friend told me a shocking news, my beloved lecturer Ms. Siew give me minimun presentation marks though i can't make it to present, Praise the Lord. Amen!!!! Last night i still a bit worry bout the 5marks but a small voice told me don't worry and now i know why don't worry . God's grace is always sufficient. !!!

I'm well blessed in this camp, despise the 5 star Awana Hotel with nice view, fantastic food and swimming pool and night view and all that, what blessed me the most is i able to get closer to God than ever before...
Well frankly speaking i was waiting God to review His calling upon my life but HE didn't .. but i found something .. more important than that now which is to follow Him where ever He go and lead. Drown myself in His word first and build strong relationship with Him and when time comes, He willl call me... .

Beside .. that i also meet a lot of new friends, good friends like Aaron, Paul, Ker Sin (cursing), Angela, Michelle, Phoebe, Donny, Gerald who loves frisbee as much as i do, ..... and so on and so on ... it is so encarouage to hear how God has bless them in my life and i know more of my God, my Fater.... Of cause i want to thank my pastor Pastor Noah for allowing me to go even i'm not a leader .... I'm well blessed .. Thank You Lord Jesus..

Fear...

August 13, 2007

Today .. i got frighthen twice. On the way to my college also on the way back from college. On the way to college one car speeding fast cut my lane from left without signal then i horn but .. nearly knock the car. If i haven't change my break skin definitely i'm involve in accident already . then on the way home also another car in front out of sudden want to cut lane then stop i also nearly hit that car...... Thank God . that i able to survive through this two inccident ....

Will your father search for a guitar skrew in a rubbish beg full of maggets for you?

August 12, 2007

Today i bought new set of guitar string then wanted to change then found that one white skrew lost already then my father tell me he throw it in the rubish bin outside my house already. Man, i'm a bit syok that time, then both of us went out then open the plastic beg and men... it is so disgusting!!! There are hundres of maggets inside. so smelly i nearly vomit. then what caught me surprise what next, my father bear hand search for the skrew inside the plastic beg which full of worms and maggets .... !!!! i felt so bad caues i really freak out ..... but my father keep searching for me only .... he is really my hero .. man ... one day when i become a father i also want to be like that. .. who willing to sacrifice so much for son. .. friends appreciate your parents you doesn't know how much they love you ...

Christina Rossetti

Trust me, I have not earned your dear rebuke,-
I love, as you would have me, God the most;
Would lose not Him, but you, must one be lost,
Nor with Lot's wife cast back a faithless look,
Unready to forego what I forsook;
This say i, having counted up the cost,
This, though i be the feeblest of God's host,
The sorriest sheep Christ shepherds with His crook.
Yet while I love my God the most, I deem
THat i can never love you over-much;
I love Him more, so let me love you too;
Yea, as I apprehend it, love is such
I cannot love you if I love not Him,
I cannot love Him, if I love not you.

Relationship Vs Car??

August 09, 2007

Today a thougth comes in my heart... i think is quite relevant so wanted to share my thought, do feel free to give comments.

Here is the story. There's a son deperate for a car, but the father said to the son:" son, please wait few years more then i will give you the best car that best suit you. But as most of the son will reply: " i don't want, i want a car now... " Father told the child that he can only get a normal now but if he can wait few years longer the father will have enough money to buy him a better car but again like most of the son... he can't wait. I insist want that normal car instead of the best which he know .. he will regret or is not worth.
Like most of the father because they love their son he still bless his son with the altis though the father actually felt very sad that his son chosen the second best for his life.

Brother and sister, don't you all think that's what happen in our journey of seeking partner too?
In Song of Solomon 8:4, “I charge you, O daughters of Jerusalem, that ye stir not up, nor awake love until it please.” He interpreted this to mean that no one, man or woman, should be agitated about the choice of a mate, but should be “asleep” as it were, in the will of God, until it should please Him to “awake” him.
But most of us compromise to choose on our own view wanted it our way and eventually most of us get hurts. Given out our best for the second best .. . is it worth? But i sure one thing ... God will be very sad that we choosen the second best for our life instead of waiting for the Best that He has chosenf or us. As a Father when seeing His own son chosen the wrong thing how much pain will it cost? but He still bless and love us doens't He?
Therefore brother and sister, please pray hard and wait upon the Lord for the best that God providing for you.. He will never short change you .. hehe ..